after reading Compassion 2010 January edition of the news update..

the line that struck a chord within me was 'make 2010 count.' 

 and that shall be what i resolute to do.

2010 will be the year of transition for me. in this period of transit.. there's heaps for me to endure and to go through before birthing to something. i look forward to the birth of something new. something worth the wait. picture how labour pains and all are part of the giving birth to a baby process. in that same way. that is how changes happen. and being caught in transition process is definitely not the easiest and the most comfortable. 

i'm finally done with school. and work is in this next phase. i'm holding on to the promises that things will unfold for the better.

making 2010 count... what am i gonna do?

i'll def want to pick up a new skill.. -guitar maybe? or craft - smth i quite enjoy doing? cake-making? cooking? baking? jewellery-making?

be more organised

be a mentor at some point if GOd calls.

just doing life with ppl most of all... i love sharing life's experiences and it just teaches me so much more than books have to offer.

for more to be added on the list.. i'll include as the year goes.

im set on the 2010's rollercoaster.! wanna join me on it? you're most welcome. let's make the year count!

as 2010 is unfolding and after having numerous chats with ppl and of course w my heavenly Father. ... i'm feeling... not the best  at the moment.

i'm actually feeling kinda lost... 

not knowing where to go or rather the easier option seems really tempting to me yet knowing my calling dont seem to be where the easy option is drives me crazy.

to stay in sg or to head back to melb and try it out myself?

to apply for TR or PR? 

to just apply for jobs here in sg and see the response i get or just wait till i head back?

all these questions...... 

of which i am caught in a dilemma.. having no answers to.

i need to figure out where He has called me to. i need to figure out where the path leads to. 

i need direction!

is this cause i've been too sheltered.? with everything provided for ? 

i actually feel inadequate now that the vast and harsh job market is all that i'm facing. i'm stepping into the real world so to speak. i've finished my masters with ZilCh work exp. who's the kind soul who's willing to give me a chance to make a start? confidence i have to build up now..

heading into the unknown and with ppl who may not be the nicest beings in the society. that's how it works. of which i dislike but have to embrace. part and parcel of working life.

embracing jeremiah 29:11 close to heart. i need heart and mind revelation and the FAITH to not waver and hold on to that promise.

Get me out of the emotional merry-go-round. it's no longer the rollercoaster with the highs and lows. this is driving me in circles. i wanna get off!

1 more mth till i head back. will i suffer an emo breakdown then.? having to face everything on my own?

i'm responsible for the decisions i make. i sure do hope i make wise ones. ppl think too highly of me. i sure hope to live up to expectations. 

in any case.. i trust.. with Him, all is possible. AMEN.. 

having been one of the far too emo post i ever did. it's what i really feel at 2am in the morning as i reflect upon myself...... keep me in ur prayers! thanks.