you're a mystery yourself
i think my body's starting to ache.man. this sucks.
i havent been stretching for far too long and today's power yoga session had me stretching for tt full 1 hr.
bleaghz. aching muscles and school makes all things worse.=/
anyhows true yoga is a nicee place. like the deco and all. the instructor was preddie too.
great bod and flexibility she had.
thanks shan for tt great offer today!.=)
so yep.we went for the session tt lasted 1 hr before ling shan and i went to try out the steam room.
wOo. it was steam-y. duh.
sat in there and chatted =) quite cool talking but not seeing the other person's face clearly.
haha. mysterious =p
saw actress ezann lee there too.
and i found out smth.
yoga practicer-s have great bodsss. im jealouss.haa.
so well.we bathed and got changed before going to shop for the guys' presents.
heez. we actually celebrated their bdae in sch earlier on.
they had to cut the cake tgt and all. quite gay-ish actually. but was fun.
oh wellz. they should be touched anyhows.haha.
oh yea. i met julie at pac plaza too. while on my way down from yoga class.
went shopping and got both of the guys shirts. nicee.
wanted to get boxers for them initially.=) but didnt fancy any in particular.
so yup. am home now. feeling tired.
gonna sleep early. still got school tmr. and cousin's wedding at nite. long day again.
blahz. brain-dead.
so till then. ! byee.
&the beauty.
some nice excerpt from the email which i think sounds true of our lives today..=)
On the very first day of the world, God created the cow.
He said to the cow: " Ah Gu(cow), today i have created u. ur job is to go to the field with the farmer all day long. you will provide the energy to pull things. you will also provide milk for people to drink. you are to work all day in the sun. in return, you will only eat grass. For tt, you will have a life span of 50 years."
Ah Gu objected.
"What, i work all day in the sun and i get only to eat grass.? On top of tt, i have to give milk away? This is tough and you want me to live 50 years? I'll take 20 and you can have the remaining 30 years back."
God agreed.
On the next day, God created the dog. He said to the dog:"Ah Kow(dog), i have created you for a purpose. You are to sit all day by the door of ur master's house. Should anyone come in, u are to bark at them. In return, you will eat ur master's leftovers. i'll give you a lifespan of 20 years."
Ah Kow objected.
"What, i have to sit by the door all day and will need to bark at people, and what do i get? Leftovers. This isnt right,i'll take 10 and you can have the remaining 10 yrs back."
God agreed again.
On the third day, God created the monkey. He said to the monkey:" Lao Kao(monkey), your job is to entertain ppl. You will make them laugh, act stupid and make faces. you will also do somersaults and swing on trees to amaze them.In return, you will get to eat bananas and peanuts. For tt, i will give u 20 yrs to live."
Naturally the monkey objected.
"This is ridiculous. i gotta make faces and make ppl laugh? let's not even come to the part abt the trees and somersaults. tell u what, i'll give u 10 yrs of my life and to thank u for my existence and i'll take 10. what do u think?"
God agreed again.
On the fourth day, God created humans. God said to the man:" you are my best piece of work, for tt, you will only need to sleep, eat, sleep, play, sleep again and do nothing else. you will get to eat all the best things and play with the best toys. all u need to do is to enjoy all ur life. for this kind of life, i'll give u 20 yrs."
Just like the rest, the man objected.
"What, all i need to do is to relax and enjoy myself and i have only 20 yrs to live? Tell u what, you've 30 yrs back from Ah Gu, 10 yrs from Ah Kow, and another 10 from Lao Kao and u probably dont know what to do with all those lives. why not i take them and i'll have 70 yrs to live?"
God being such good-natured, agreed with a smile.
AND THAT IS WHY:
We eat, sleep, play and enjoy for the 1st 20 yrs of our lives when we are growing up. Work like a cow for the next 30 yrs.Sit outside the door and bark at ppl for the next 10 when we are retired. And finally, we make faces and perform monkey tricks to entertain our grandchildren for the final 10 yrs.
quite funny this email.=p
&the beauty.
happy birthday shaun-a.!!!
tt 'boy' has finally turned 18.
just hope he gets his license earlier than me and he gets the car to drive us around.=p
firedrill in school ytd was the usual tt we have been going thru for years.
they never ever feel real cuz most of us already noe before hand tt there was gonna be one.
tt's y teachers cant blame us for walking/strolling our way to the assembly area.
and taking the SAFEST route tt was the nearest the fire area to evacuate.
haa.
tt's exactly wad we did.
apparently there was a fire in the co-op.
and we actually took the staircase nearest it to make our way to the gallery.
aft roasting ourselves for 10 mins which freaking felt like eternity under tt scorching sun,
headed back to the cafe and sat there till gp lect was over.
well. it was cancelled anyways.
lessons were as usual.
screwed math up.
knew it.emotionless alr.
today was usual schooling for me.
its a mere 42 days to As.
nat just reminded me .=x
bleaghz. scaree.
can i enter uni or is my education journey ending here for now??
well. i will get my answer in feb next yr.
till then i wanna change my destiny.
putting in my all for the exams.
im gonna studyyyy!!! H-A-R-D.(motivate me will u?)
&the beauty.
the past few days were not bad.
school days were kinda short since it was all exam papers review lectures.
well. so far only passed GP. improved by a grade to C5.
tt's not too bad for me alr.
but well. for the rest of the papers. im so totally dead.
haven seen any improvement at all.
in fact i bet it deteriorated.
ah wellz. i cant be bothered to elaborate on my cannot-be-helped exam results alr.
just hoping for the best at the As.
anyhows. on a brighter note.
i managed to catch 2 movies in the these 3 days.
went out with ling,lawrence,kenneth,shaun and merjahn aft sch on thurs to ps.
caught 'the cave'.
well. there were no other movies available tt suited our timing.
the show was not TOO bad.
haaz. well. but not much storyline.
in fact it was kinda gruesome when u can see what are the insides of wounds and all.
grossed out at how the mutated monsters attacked those ppl. eewww.
i guess they wanted just to increase the gross factor of the movie tt's all.
some parts were actually rather boring. =/
today went to bbdc with hui again to chiong driving lessons again.
went for practice and BTL 1.02.
finished another 2 parts of it all.
well. gonna go for another practice session the next time though.
met xan there.
didnt noe he was back for quite some time alr and is in the army.=p
lunched at westmall and movie aft tt.
leo joined us there.
the longest yard is nicee.!
thumbs up for tt comedy.=)
dinner-ed at causeway pt before coming home.
some funny incident happened there as well.haa.
now im gonna do some work before i sleep. byee.!
&the beauty.
disappointed.
saddened.
worried.
depressed.
strived not hard enough.
un-motivated.
hopeless.
fearful.
those words are just a part of my limited vocab to describe the mixed feelings im having now.
didnt feel so bad in school until i got home and started reflecting quite a bit.
prelims are over ! it aint a good thing tt the much-dreaded results are back.
hoping for a pass wasnt good enough.
it has truly shown and made so clear tt im not studying hard enough.
its depressing.
are my study methods so wrong.?
i think im not having enough practice and i just aint striving hard enough i guess.
reassuring myself time after time that its just the prelims and As will be better.
i hope it would be so.
im not sure if it the right mentality to hold.
but suddenly wad lawrence said struck me.
it may be the prelims but As arent too far away and this is a gauge.
by not doing well how sure am i As will be better.and i will get the desired grade i want.
a mere 1 1/2 months away.its not too much not too little time for last min revision and cramming.
ive gotta start now before its really too late =(
looking thru my exam papers and seeing the marks that came with it.
i feel damn dumb.
y is it that others can do it and i cant?
i feel stupid at times.
am i regretting it all over again.?
poly and jc. y did i choose jc ?
to satisfy my parent's desire? thinking of it as a means to a better future.?
not sure of wad i wanted and had no confirmed decision on the poly course ?
these questions have all came too late.
the pressure then just made me put jc as my next stop aft sec sch.
anyhows jc life has made me grow up and matured my thinking.
it has nonetheless strengthen me mentally.
facing the pressures of jc life make one cant help but to deal with it.
mentally torturing at times. esp studying.
many a times making me feel like breaking down and giving all up.
but still. with the comfort i get from family and friends.it has pushed me on.
one thing i dont regret was the friendships established.
it makes life in there more worthwhile=)
anyways im reaching the end of the tormenting rat race.
i just hope to finish it with grace. successful and not being a total failure.
in this 1 over month,im gonna do wad it takes to ensure me tt.
tt's all the time i have left to salvage it.
it decides where my education journey ends.
and where its gonna bring me. what my future may hold and what not.
having tt dream of entering uni to study a business degree seems so distant all this while.
with the prelim results, it has gone even further.
im gonna start a revision plan and get myself in order.
been in this mess for far too long and its not getting me anywhere.
okae. its no use wallowing in self-pity and only HOPE for things to get better.
it wont. i have to help myself while God helps me.
been going by tt phrase which keeps me going.
* i can do all things thru christ who strengthens me *
cuz its only in HIM i trust.
the world may go round in circles and evrything is shaky.
but he is my refuge and strength, the rock of my salvation.=)
paper qualifications and all are just what the world has to offer.
there are much more wonderous things that await me as i continue on my journey with him.=p
to all who's feeling the same way as me at some point in ur life. i guess we just have to strive on and persevere.
nothing is impossible.
i'm-possible!
i can do it.!!! till then.~
-life in the midst of restructuring and shaping needs strength and determination-
&the beauty.
firstly,
happy birthday to jiZeng and kuan hwee, the bdae boys today.! =)
hrmz.
ytd shopping was great.!
bugis just has so many shops and so many things to look at and wanna buy.
anyhows i got a jacket and a bag.
2 items off my shopping list.=)
walked the whole day and my legs were gonna break.
oh yea.
saw ericia lee and ix shen there too.
oh man. the tvee does wonders to artistes.
he looks like he has a hot bod on tv yea. and look rather good looking and all.
man. in person. he's not tt stunning AT all.
he had thin legs and a beefed up bod.
picture tt and its up to u to decide.haa
his gf paled in comparison in terms of size.
she was sooo petite.
like i said. on tv they definitely LOOKED better.
haha.
today's the last day of slacking before school starts again tmr.
gonna get back into momentum and all again.
with As being a mere 1 1/2 month away.
scaree tt its approaching but if tt helps heighten my urgency to revise fervently.
den its good fear.=)
a friend of mine is worrying me.
ur sudden change in attitude and mindsets has affected ur mood and all.
pls dont sink into paranoia and dismay will u?
its scaree. ur emotions are at stake.
ppl around u cant help but worry.
i noe its really up to u to save the situation and sort things out.
but im afraid it may take quite a long while when ure in it just alone.
tell me if u need my help alright.
just pls dont sink deeper and deeper till it gets to a point when things are alr in a very bad state.
i hope u get out of tt shell soon.
&the beauty.
today was fun fun fun.
yet at the same time rather depresssing.:(
well. the fun part was of cos the day itself and the activities.
but the depressing and ultra mega saddening thing for fel and me was tt we both were identificationless and had to spent loads of coins on our transport means for the day.
damn irritating i tell u.
rushed out of the house leaving my ez link in the bag tt i had for exams ytd.
so quickly called fel to ask her help me bring coins.
and the next thing was she too rushed out of the house and changed her wallet w/o realising tt the ez link was in her other one.
dammit. how swae can we get man.
so anyhows. changed coins all the way. and its so freaking expensive paying adult fare.=(
anywayz. today started with boring theory lessons at bbdc.
den off to town to catch be with me.
man. i need to appreciate award-winning films. cuz i quite felt tt the aw-inspiring show was rather boring.
it felt more like a mime to me since there was really lil sounds coming from the actors or actresses. not even background music.
oh wellz. so luckily i didnt sleep.
met kenneth in town too. and he actually told me cinderella man was nicer.
haa. should have watched tt or other movies instead.
so wellz.
met leo at wisma.
den it was off to meet the hensa and kuan hwee at marina bay.
we had yummy steamboat.=)
smilez. nice nice.
we were celebrating kuan hwee's bdae in advance.
glad he liked the present.
den it was off to ps for drinks.haha.
fel and kuan hwee left at marina though.
took pics and enjoyed the music from the event they were having there too.heez.
had good company and an enjoyable post prelims celebration today.*smiles*
more to come on monday.heez
till then ppl!
&the beauty.
okaez. ive added haloscan for u guys to leave tags too.=)
up to ur preference yea.
cuz ive no idea why no matter i change the colour of the tagboard. the background of the typing area is still black.=/
&the beauty.
tmr tmr tmr.
it marks the end of my prelims and i cant wait.!
suffocating under the myriad of books and notes suck. i wanna be free yet again.
ok. at least for awhile.
before i will return to my recluse state and start my mugger mode all over again for the next 1 month.
the preparation period for exams are always so gruelling and long.
dimming the spark of life and all. making my life so freaking boring and mundane.
i can only take comfort in going out for tt occasional breath of fresh air and my upkeep with city life. haha.
okaez. i admit i am the 'occasional' may be quite frequent. sorry.=/
math, phy, gp papers are all over!. tt calls for a lil celebration alr.
tmr's left with only chem paper 3 which i deem will gonna be a total killa.
a stab at my confidence in chem yet again.
not tt i had much to begin with.=s
woohoo! im so gonna enjoy for the weekend. free from books for a teeny weeny lil while.=))
sat's packed with driving theory starting my oh so cheerful morning. and steamboat dinnerr.yay!
monday's the day for my long awaited and held back retail therapy indulgence.=p
yep. for now. its utter coolness as motivation for me to get back to revising for tmr's freaking lasssttt paper. of this dredgy prelimss.
till then ppl! enjoyy and study hard.;)
&the beauty.
the sept 'holidays' are now over. and its back to prelim mode.
spent the whole of last week studying in the mornings and afternoons and spending the nights entertaining my hk relatives.
it was fulfilling. but studying is really getting boring.
felt like giving it all up halfway.however, reminding myself that i have already come thus far makes me dont want to waste all the hard work i had already put in.
so yeah. 1 more month. and its all gonna be over.
closing yet another chapter of my education journey.
last fri was great. met hui and fel for some mtv event thingie. just throwing toilet rolls into a pathetic toilet bowl right in the middle at the atrium@orchard helped me earned an additional 30 bucks.
yayness. fast cash. =)
all thanks to fel for tt so good lobang.
next time got more call us k.hahaha.
had lunch at cafe cartel with fel church peeps. nice lunch~
me and hui den left to meet leo for studying session at orchard emerald bk.
got some work done before we went for a lil shopping session.=p
managed to get a clutch bag from far east. now i want a bigger one.!
and im in the mood of shopping again. bleaghz.
aft the prelims. im definitely going.! heez.
cant wait till after the As. by then. my shopping list will be so terribly long and i wont have the money.so shall settle them off one by one.=)
today.
chem paper 2 is finally over. left 4 more papers to go.
im so freaking scared i wont pass my math. stats being the bulk of paper 2 aint helping me attain at least a C.
dammit. my only hope is gone with me scoring only a 50 for paper 1.=(
anyhows. i shall just keep practicing today and tmr and just hope for the best.
all the best to all of u taking exams too aightz.! =)
&the beauty.
sistaaas forever! =D
took this excerpt from tabi's blog which i felt held truly meaningful about sisters(girlfriends, mums and daughter and just basically female species of the world).
here it goes:
time passes.
life happens.distance separates.
children grow up.
love waxes and wanes.
hearts break.
careers end.
jobs come and go.
parents die.
colleagues forget favours.
BUT.sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
a sister is never farther than needing her can reach.
when you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it yourself, your sisters will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting for you with open arms at the valley's end.
sometimes, they would even break the rules and walk beside you.
or come in and carry you out.
the above excerpt just really reflects how the reality of life is like.
in it all. we girls/woman simply need sisters to push us along the way. walking beside or in front of us to guide.
im sooo fortunate to have my 2 bestiex with me along the way. thanks so much alright.!
i treasure the friendship alottt..=)
so here's a shoutout to all my friends out there too.: i will be there for u whenever u need me =) feel free to drop me a line.
friendship aint easy to maintain. bringing abt the many different kinds of friends in our lives.
the fair-weather ones, those who are always there for u but u take for granted type, as well as those u hang out with evry other day but dont get bored of friends, acquaintances, and of cos good friends whom u can have loads of fun . and most importantly those to whom you can just be yourself without having to hide anything from. and letting them in on ur innermost darkest secrets. not needing to put on that mask or hide behind tt safe facade. many many different categories of friends.
oh wellz.
cheers to all friendship we have all established aightz.! thanks for being a part of my life at some point or another. =)
&the beauty.
the weekend has been a busy onee. fun too.=)
fri lunch with ma girlies was simply great.
good food at sakae with excellent company.
wad more can i ask for?
went trigger happy after sooo longg.
the ppl around us must have tot we were making a full out of ourselves and making a whole lot of noise.
anyhows. we had great fun and tt's the bottomline.=)
yay! i cant wait for more of these times to come.
after my As.. i will be freee!
oh well. so we sat there till round 5+ and mark came.
me and hui left soon after to meet leo&kad.
kad left soon after.
accompanied leo for his dinner at far east.
walked around a lil and we went home.
sat.
my hk relatives just arrived and its busy busy entertaining this week.
oh well. i still gotta study for my prelims too.
so anyway. i gotta plan!
blahz. im so into the mood as if my prelims are over.
its just so hard to get into the mood of studying but its ever so easy switching back to my slacking mood.=p
its just me. ! haha.
i shall just wait for my guilty conscience to set me back in momentum of studying.
persevere's the word!
msg to me: study hard and it will all be over in no time. strive hard and HOPE the results show.=p
msg to all of u: study hard too!! u guy can do it im sure. all the best yea.=)
&the beauty.
sistaaas forever! =D