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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

4:56 AM

A week and a bit into the new year of 2012.... with much anticipation into what the new year would be bring.
Year 2012 - the end of the world? the start of a new dimension? to me, I declare it the year of the Lord's favour.
Excited to see what God will do in this year as it unfolds and really want to see His works tell their tale.
For the first time in a long while, i'm actually really motivated to set some resolutions (in broad) and see them fulfilled towards the end of the year.

Resolution #2012: DARE to make mistakes.

On a personal front, I guess the motivation comes with yet another year of transition and expectance of what the future holds. My TR comes to an end come mid-Dec. Work has just barely started considering I am finally in the right field clocking up work experience to go the distance in finance. As the year unfolds, i'm leaving it up to Him in faith.

Setting resolution 2012: DARE to make mistakes. That quote struck a chord within me and I have grasped it to my resolution for the year. I see mistakes as lessons learnt and just greater opportunities birthed. I am looking forward to the ride ahead and the experiences and memories to be created. It can only get better from here. I choose to believe, at least.

11 January.. the past 10 days have been eventful in themselves as I went into self-reflection mode and set out my goals I wanna achieve in the next 365 days as I stepped into Day 1. Day by day, as I deliberated and prayed, the more I am amazed at what God has done in my 2011 and i've been truly blessed. As such, I am only more than convinced that He will make my 2012 even greater. No matter what pans out, I will be thankful and accept in my stride. His love never fails and so does HIs promises. Seeing the outworking of His Holy Spirit, I am caught in awe of His wonder and grace. With a thankful heart I come, to the throne of His grace; asking once more for extra forgiveness and mercy in yet another year ahead. The Lord my God is my shepherd. My rock and refuge. Lover and Friend. My God and King.

Here is my prayer for this year to be a blessed and wonderful one to all my family and friends. Each and every one of you have left footprints on my heart and impacted me to greater/lesser of a degree to who I am today. I am indeed thankful. May 2012 be your best year yet too. And.. I propose the DARE. to make the mistakes. to pick yourself up when you fall. to learn lessons from every disappointment and to smile in the rainy days. :)

God bless xx

&the beauty.

2:07 AM

Of things I value & treasure. Of life goals and dreams...

Where differences in opinions lies,

Do I take no compromise.

Where things of the world blurs the BIG picture,

I pray for His grace & favour.

I know what is all that is of utmost importance to me

Prioritising never seems to be easy

Many a times emotions cloud all rationale

But I know at the end of the day, His love will never fail

Of life goals and dreams.

Of things I value and treasure

I know His' reigns supreme.

But I can't help and sometimes feel the pressure

To understand the will and walk the journey

Along the way I meet trials & obstacles

That requires the faithfulness in me

To not make it a spectacle

My hearts' desires

I come in surrender

Lord, take them over

and make them Yours to handle.

A time of whirlwind in the mind

I appreciate if You would only be kind.

I promise for every tough time to always stop and pause.

Thank You for all that you blessed this child of Yours.

Labels: differences, dreams, goals, love, values

&the beauty.

4:31 AM

Oh Lord, you're beautiful,

Your face is all I seek,

For when your eyes are on this child,

Your grace abounds to me.

Oh Lord, you're beautiful,

Your face is all I seek,

For when your eyes are on this child,

Your grace abounds to me.

I want to take your word and shine it all around.

But first help me just to live it Lord.

And when I'm doing well, help me to never seek a crown.

For my reward is giving glory to you.

Oh Lord, please light the fire,

That once burned bright and clear.

Replace the lamp of my first love,

That burns with Holy fear.

I want to take your word and shine it all around.

But first help me just to live it Lord.

And when I'm doing well, help me to never seek a crown.

For my reward is giving glory to you.

Oh Lord, you're beautiful,

Your face is all I seek,

For when your eyes are on this child,

Your grace abounds to me.

Oh Lord, you're beautiful,

Your face is all I seek,

For when your eyes are on this child,

Your grace abounds to me.

the line that resonates.. "and when i'm doing well, help me to never seek the crown".

so true. so right. to be my prayer of all time.

life's been cruising along pretty fine at the moment and has been for the past couple of months. can't believe that we're almost into ending the 1st quarter of 2011 already. SO FAST. TOO FAST!

started my 2 months of the year wanting to set and path what I want to achieve this year. and here I am at the start of March and still not really having put much thought into the details of the big picture.

I should set some goals for myself. otherwise I would ease too comfortably into the current state of routine.

work's been pretty good just that at some point, I do feel it's not challenging me to carving a career from here.

Well I guess I started out on a footing that I have never thought of and definitely not somewhere I would have seen myself in for a start.

But like all that falls within the plans of His hands, they all work out for a purpose, a greater reason. I am thankful for it.

however the rest of 2011 unfolds.. im off on a great start :) very blessed. :))

&the beauty.

5:12 AM

Be my valentine.... will you?

&the beauty.

2:11 AM

Luke 2: 52 - And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man.

promises revealed.. God proved faithful... as always...

i come to the throne with a thankful heart.

&the beauty.

4:33 AM

the dilemma i thought was resolved has actually not..

although i guess it's gone from a point of uncertainty to more surety & clarity.

as much as it feels right, i'm fearful of the steps of faith needed or rather just the confrontation bits of it.

it's THE MOVE!

something i'm not too familiar with and have never had to do all my years of walking this christian walk.

Something I've avoided whenever I could.

I asked God is this the right choice. is this just purely my own wishful thinking and not His will afterall.

After much deliberation & prayer, i feel quite right, though not a 100%, in my spirit to go ahead and do it.

the numbness, the oblivion and the unwillingness to commit has motivated me to get it right all over again. Perhaps, i really should just do it.

Spoke with a couple of people just to sound the many thoughts running through my mind. it does seem to all point in the same direction.

I guess at the end of the day, as long as my faith does not waver and planting myself in some place where I can grow my roots in Him, that's ultimately most important.

Now, it's the talks I need to get through before the departure that I am trying to put off.

Lord, please give me the confidence and honesty in expressing my thoughts and feelings that in this season, it's just not the right place for me.

I thank them for the opportunity to grow and am thoroughly grateful for the sowing of seeds in my life and for just providing one of the best foundations of faith.

To be where I am today, I am very thankful.

Of which, I surrender ALL. To where this leads, i trust it with Faith...

&the beauty.

4:07 AM

this time last year was my last blog post...

just decided to pick this up again.. how frequent the entries may be.? i dunno. as & when i feel like blogging my thoughts i guess. and if they're gonna be all writings.?. i dont think so. :) we'll see..

and so. a year of going all silent in blogging world. what do i summarise 2010 to be like.one phrase - Embrace the challenges of transition.

a year of starting a new chapter. a year of exploring the unchartered waters with God. Delving into deep ends with no clue of how deep it really is. going on destination-less roadtrips meeting detours now and then. I guess that pretty much sums up how I went from being a student and into the scary working world where my character undergoes moulding & shaping. I'm glad to say amidst all, I am REALLY THANKFUL & GRATEFUL for God's faithfulness. He stood by His promises, carried me in the tough times and just open doors of opportunities that He amazed me with. Standing at the start of 2011, I'm glad for 2010 to be over yet know that the year needed to go by the way it did.

2011 has started off on an awesome note. Got back straight into routine after coming back from a 2 week hols in Sg+Beijing. A well-needed break to catch up with family and get some sanity check going. Being back in Melbourne and into work, I've undertaken a new perspective in dealing with work. Esp coming out from a whole year of starting work full-time. Knowing what needs to be done and understanding God's ultimate plan of putting me there this season, I am all onto it! Taking in the good and the bad, the happy and the unhappy, ALL in my stride. For I believe in Phil 4:13.... Nothing is impossible for those who believe

i'm just lovin' it at the moment....

Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope & a future

&the beauty.